Thursday, March 29, 2012

Are you LMFAO?

I was sending a link to a music video today. I'm trying to decide if I should send my mom the lyrics to LMFAO's I'm sexy and I know it song... she has this as her ringtone and I'm SURE she doesn't know what the song is about...

Anyway I have watched this ridiculous video way more times than I am proud of, because the first time it was mostly shock factor, I had to watch it more than once... like Natural Born Killers or Pulp Fiction.

Today I noticed something I hadn't noticed before.

The lead singer for LMFAO doesn't appear to have arm or leg hair (no chest hair either but for some reason I didn't think that was significant).

Then I was looking and noticed a LOT of the guys in the video seemed smooth (is Ron Jeremy leg hairless?)

I thought I would share, please if you don't already know or like this song, turn down the sound before viewing, you may not want to blast it...

And, I think this video bodes well for those of you that want to remain hairless all the time... that it's the in thing to do for younger people and aren't wives always jumping on the latest in bandwagon?

Submitted for your own critique, the video in question:

Thursday, March 22, 2012

SO, what's going on...

Many times I get a post prepared and just can't finish it. I want to have more to say to you all, but feel like a fraud. I don't have as much going on in the T-world. I don't really know anyone personally in my area and my own T-girl is gone. I have my special relationships with a few of you lovely ladies out there, but you aren't close enough here for me to drive over and spend time with. And so I wonder why anyone continues to read.

I will tell you that I hope to have lots more T adventures in the future. And if all goes as planned, it won't be from Memphis. I have been working on another blog lately. Well, I have two more, but one is for therapy.

I was having some trouble at work, just one day every two weeks, but it was bad and I didn't know what to do so I told my grief therapist. She suggested that I take time to really concentrate on my grief more. Her suggestion proved too much for me. So I decided instead of spending a ton of time on "feeling my grief" at once, I'd visit it every day. This has proved to be an awesome experience. It's also one I haven't really shared with more than a couple of people. Now I'm telling all of you. There is one really special friend who reads it every single day. I don't really understand why anyone would want to. I've had another friend or two I've told about it who wanted the blog addy. I give it to anyone who asks, but tell them it's hard to read. It's hard to write, but it feels great when it's over...

I am moving upwards and onwards. Just like I want to. It is a process, but life is a process, becoming who and what you are meant to be is a process.

The journey is awesome. Not always good awesome, but always awesome.

Hugs everyone!

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

What about PFX?

So I went to B'ham and had a great time... slept way too little (as per usual). I had a surprise waiting on me when I got there... I knew my friend was getting tickets to see the Pink Floyd Experience from his wife for his bday. But what I didn't know, was that when he found out the concert was going to be when I was in Birmingham, they went and got a third ticket, for me! He had gone with Penny (um, in drab of course, because "Penny" hadn't been fully realized at the time) to see actual Pink Floyd when we were all still in college, the last time they toured. Pink Floyd Experience was doing the entire Wish You Were Here album as part of their set... the first part. I was nervous about going, but I accepted that this must be supposed to happen. My therapist said I needed to grieve more and well, I knew that I would sob listening to that album. They did the entire album as the first part of the show. Nothing else they played really upset me. (I think I did shed a few tears during Comfortably Numb...)

They did something that surprised me. There was quite a long intermission between the first part of the show and the second. I found myself wishing that they would do what I have forever called the "silly scream song" but that was mostly to irritate my spouse in a loving manner. I know the name of the song is Astronomy Domine. Penny was fascinated by Syd Barrett and obsessed over every nuance and song lyric... I was so glad that one of his songs was included in the "experience".

I played Fluxx and Monty Python Fluxx which I would love to add to my collection... if you love games then give some version of Fluxx a chance, or send me your birthdate and address so I can send you one :)

I got to visit with almost my whole immediate family thanks to them all being centrally located and willing to all meet for lunch after church. (LOL)

I know this is kind of boring, but hey... it's my life. :)

And those of you reading, at least some of you do want to know. I'm looking for more new things in my future. Hugs everyone...

Friday, March 9, 2012

Bama Bound :)

I know, I 've been going to Alabama a whole lot... really not as much as in years past, but still... it's a lot with the price of gas today and the fact that I am now a single-income household. But this is probably going to be my last trip for a while.
My dear late Penny, God rest her soul, and I kept a few friends from college. One of them just recently turned 40 (the weekend I was supposed to be in Chicago). So I am going to visit and give him a hard time (lol). And see my grandkids (his boys call me Gramma, which I am totally cool with).

My first big home issue came up this week. My AC quit working (I live in the South, remember). So I have a repairman here now trying to fix it. My choice was a repair that might last a while or replace all of the upstairs bits. The second part was not even an option for me at this time.

I can't wait to get to B'ham. I want to see my AL peeps. I want them to see what I am becoming. Some of my friends have told me it is good to talk to me on the phone, that I am more the me I was in college... the out loud version of myself. It feels really good! I had forgotten there were people who knew me before I was a couple.


Monday, March 5, 2012

Beware the Ides of March!

Every year when March approaches I remember the warning from the play. I saw Julius Caesar at the Alabama Shakespeare Festival when I was in the 9th grade. I went back every year for one play or another (and good dates when I could get them LOL) because it is such a wonderful place to go and the productions are really top notch (or they are in my opinion and that is what counts, right?).

I know we aren't quite to the ides, but this year seems to be flying by... wasn't it just January? I'm not sitting at home feeling sorry for myself, I'm LIVING! I've talked to some of you in private and have loved all of the support you've given me. You will never know how the smallest word has made me feel supported by you all! I so hope one day soon to have even more happy news to share with you all. Right now my happy news is that I am happy.

I loved Penny, both sides of her personality. I also love myself. I know that many of you have said that my story must have been too good to be true.

I took some time to reread my blog. Nope, every word is true. I wrote down exactly what I felt when I felt it. But there of course is another side to the story. Nothing to do with trans issues, but to do with our marriage. It wasn't all fun and games, and we had regular problems just like every other couple. We fought about mundane things and one of us was the "giver" in the relationship and one was the "taker."

Not even our relatives knew when we were having problems, so please don't think I regulated only the fluffy stuff for the blog. There is a post where I talk about how horrible I am...

But know this, I know that what Penny did had NOTHING to do with me or our marriage. As most couples do, we had the talk many times about what our plans were if something bad should happen to one of us, and I'm doing exactly what Penny wanted... I am living my life exactly as I want to. She often wondered if her introversion kept me from doing things, and it didn't. But now I don't have to worry about it at all.

I am a bit of an extrovert, but not extreme. I love to go outside and I love to play board and card games and that always works better with a few people. I don't need loud parties or a ton of people. One or two work wonders. I don't like to be alone all the time so I'm not. And I don't plan to be.

I went to Paint a Piece yesterday between work shifts and had a great time with a girlfriend. Saturday was an all day trip to and from a funeral out of town (but not someone close to me, it was someone close to my very good friends). Friday was extra fun because I had a bonus thing... I went to Moe's with my friends from work and while I was there, a girlfriend called, she had been stood up by another girlfriend of hers so she asked me to come have margaritas with her... how could I resist?

Hugs everyone!