Ok, so where have I been?

First of all, our vacation was AWESOME! We got to spend a ton of quality time together and Penny went out DRESSED in the DAYLIGHT! It was so cool! Second of all while we were on vaca, she tried on some shoes...some girl shoes in a store where I was also trying on shoes (AWESOME).
Then we got home and I have to admit I was a little down from the vacation high. We got some awesome time together and I always miss her after we have several days together and then get back to our normal routine which is basically spend time together one night per week.
Also, it was getting close to my birthday and well, I went up into another checkbox area (lol) and so that was exciting.

But with the good there is also the bad. I know there are a lot of negative things to discover on the intranet, just like there is a lot of good, and until VERY recently, a lot of bad stuff was affecting my own personal relationship.

This is for anyone out there who is feeling bad about themselves...love yourself!
ACCEPT YOURSELF.

also

Don't worry about what other people think.

Some people just hate. Out of jealousy or ignorance, and there is nothing to be learned from them.  It's the exact kind of hate that people have for other races or socioeconomic groups of people.
And it's ignorant.

I've had a lot of personal soul searching I've been doing myself. I like some of you miss Penny's blog and I've had a hard time with her withdrawal from the blogosphere.  I kept thinking it wouldn't/ shouldn't affect me but it did.

I quit hanging out on the message boards because I felt I got what I needed from the other wives and hurt some people a little I think (I didn't mean to, everything I said was meant out of LOVE, I swear).  Maybe I'm not as sensitive as I need to be, and maybe I am way more masculine than I want...

I have been doing some things I love. I have been creating some beautiful crafty things which is what I LOVE doing so that's cool. I'm going to try and catch up on reading my lovely cd/ts/and spouse blogs that I love. I'm sorry I was absent, but I'm still here and I still wish I could give you all a big hug!

Aeify